"F" It!!

You know it is bad when you get to the point when you say, "F" It! I have reached this point and feel that I have done EVERYTHING in my power to avoid reaching this point. I give unselfishly and am still screwed over by the one that professes to love me the most. 1 Corinthians 13:4 sums it up. 4 Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; 5 does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; 6 does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; 7 bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. .

Even though God's Word speaks loud and clear about what love is and should be, I can no longer endure the suffering. It is time to let this bird fly away and not look for it to return. I have compromised my peace of mind, my happiness, and my right to freedom to appease someone who does not know the Godly meaning of "Love"; therefore, I must take 10 steps back and re-evaluate myself and this situation. I miss who I had become. I am no longer the bubbly person that I was; I am always doubting who I am and how I should view myself. I have sold my soul to the devil and I want it back. I love who I was becoming; I love looking at me. Most importantly, I love being loved. I am not loved in this "so-called" relationship. I am being used, used for any and every!! I DON'T WANT IT ANYMORE AND I DESERVE BETTER. I WILL QUIT SETTLING FOR LESS AND WILL SAY "F" IT!!! I LOVE ME MORE THAN I LOVE YOU. I LOVE ME TOO MUCH TO LET ANYONE WALK ON AND OVER ME. IT STOPS RIGHT NOW!!!